It’s now my fourth day and I’m feeling good. Yesterday wasn’t awesome. I had my first ‘cravings’ for my old way of eating when I bought brownies for my kids. No to mention that we went to McDonald’s for ice cream since the kids were so good all day … Let’s start there.
A Fat Chick Walks into McDonald’s
I went to McDs with my kids, right? I’m feeling pretty strong. I’m thinking I’m going to get my dollar diet coke and a chicken salad (their salads are pretty good). I’m feeling STRONG; I’m feeling DETERMINED; I’m feeling … FRIES! No, wait, what? No fries! I got my kids food, got my drink, and sat down. I kept thinking if I fuck up today, then the last 3 days have been for nothing. I have already lost 2 pounds. I’m going to fuck up for fries?? I THINK NOT!
Being brave again, I head over to the ordering kiosk (Why I can’t just give my order to humans, is beyond me. Really, McDonald’s, like you don’t pay your people shitty enough, now they have to give up their cashier jobs to a machine? I digress). I find the salad I want, and it turns out, it’s about $5.50. I’m sorry, what? I’m broke. I just fed the 800 kids I have. I have a budget that needs to be adhered to. I rationalized it as, “This one has chicken. It’s expensive. Let’s just get a side salad. That will be fine.”
So, I tap into the side salad and BOOM $2.50. Two dollars and fifty cents for a cup of lettuce, two cherry tomatoes, and a tablespoon of shredded carrots. Not even fucking cheese. I am so serious.
Then I get the idea to get a burger ‘protein style’ (sans bun, wrapped in lettuce). I go to the burger section, and they have all these fancy burgers for $6 and up, but I’m just looking for a low brow cheeseburger. They are a fucking dollar. Seriously? So, I customize the burger so there’s no bun and it’s, instead, wrapped in lettuce. THEY CHARGED ME $0.25 TO DO THAT!
You can’t make this shit up.
What is it? My weight is connected to my wallet? I knew things like organic and that shit, but I was having them save a bun and wrap my burger in a single leaf of lettuce, and I had gotten charged a quarter? How much do buns cost? Seriously? I don’t know how i feel about that other than the fury that comes up. It’s like someone has control over me, over my body? I’m not into this at all. Any who … I had my $1.25 burger and my $1.00 diet coke. Ugh. I was sick – with the idea. The burger was kick ass.
Then There was Grocery Shopping
I made the mistake of hitting the grocery store while I’m hungry. It’s not that I started out hungry. My car is down temporarily so I walk everywhere. So, me and my wagon haul ourselves down to the local store. When I got there, it was fine. I wasn’t hungry. Until the doors opened. Then the smell of rotisserie chicken and the bakery kicked in. OMG it was brilliant. I loved it. I didn’t want to leave without eating every last piece of baked bread and cake and cookie. I love food. But I got through it. It took a minute for me to get through it. I wanted to eat everything. Then I started walking back home with my wagon, 4 gallons of milk, and by the time I got back to the house, the want to eat everything was out of me omg. I didn’t want to do anything.
When you switch over to this type of eating, you get tired quick. Your energy isn’t instant like when you’re eating carbs – simple sugars and shit. That’s instant energy. Protein is more a slow burning energy source. It takes a minute to adjust to the new energy stores. I’m in the “I want to sleep all day” phase right now. It sucks that I can’t. Kids. Job. Avoiding Doctor Psycho.
What I have found, is that I’m returning to a state of what I call, “Toddler-ism”, you know where you run them until all their energy is gone, then they crash out? That’s me right now. I was chronically up all night. Sleeping just 2 or 3 hours at a time. Now, I’m so exhausted, not only am I getting to 4 hours at a time, I’m sleeping thoroughly. Like, I’m sleeping deep, dreaming, out like a light sleep.
Today, being day four, was the first day in i don’t know how long, where I woke up rested. Up until this morning, I didn’t even remember what that word means:
I thought it was a myth. Like good guys and one-size-fits-all.
But I woke up, got up, got the kids up, AND I was feeling good with a good mood. It was like the perfect morning. Then, of course, Doctor Psycho got up. But even that wasn’t as painful as normal.
Day 4 is Going Okay
Today is going pretty well. I brought my lunch to work. I ate my breakfast, and I have bourbon bbq marinating chicken for dinner tonight in the fridge! Greatest thing I found: Hard Boiled Eggs at the grocery store. Already boiled, in a bag, ready to go. Boom. Since I eat 2 eggs every morning, this is a huge help. I got a pack of 6 for $2. They had a pack of 2, but that was $1, mind as well get the six pack one for $2.
The other thing I found which I have been using like NUTS is Oscar Meyer has this bacon bits of real actual bacon already cooked. Like you would put on salad, right? What I do, because I eat on the run and I don’t like the egg yokes, i open the hard boiled egg, take out the yoke, fill it with bacon, and shove it in my pie hole. Finger foods omelet.
So There it is
That’s where I am today. I have a little story for y’all in a bit. Other than that, cheerio! Shit. Now I want a bowl of cheerios.
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