5 Ways I am Changing My World

As you all know, I’ve been going through a bit of a shake up. The ending of my 16-year relationship, trying to maintain some type of civilly between myself and my kids’ dad, fighting my worst frienemy, ‘Depression’, and having to move back in with my ma where my OCD/ sociopath of a sister lives, has presented more than a challenge and added a huge source of stress.

My world has fallen apart. I am (metaphorically) dying.

I have two competing options in my head right now:

  1. There is little I can do at this juncture to facilitate a resolution of many of my issues  – why fight it? Give in to the depression, lie in the bed all day, and do nothing. Eventually, things will sort themselves out.  Eat the fucking brownie; it always has loved me. And I it.
  2. There is little I can do at this juncture to facilitate a resolution of many of my issues – why fight it? Why waste the energy right now on things I can’t control and focus on things I can control? I can’t stop my sister from being a total fucking nut-job. I can control how much I am exposed to her insanity. I can’t control the fact that I have to live at my ma’s right now. I can control how long that has to be by sorting out my options, finding a job, etc. I can’t control how my ex is going to behave, but I can control how I react to that behavior.

I decided to choose option number two. FOCUS ON WHAT I CAN CONTROL. So, I decided I am going to change my world. Here are 5 ways I’m doing it.  Continue reading

How I manifested $600+ for our trip

First, there has to be an understanding of what that means to manifest money. It doesn’t just come in the form of cash but also coupons, gifts, discounts, etc – there’s an unlimited number of ways money can come to you. 

As you have known, I’ve been trying to raise funds for my kids trip (for $600); yesterday I even posted how I felt a little let down by the people who already said would help but then didn’t. I was feeling like I was going to let my kids down. 

I had been posting on FB stuff to sell to help raise funds since mid march. One thing that’s been on there this whole time were a pair of crutches that I couldn’t unload. I lowered the price down to $10 but nothing. Well, I made my intention on Tuesday, Wednesday a lady called and said she wanted them for the list price of $15! Turned out I changed the price on all the groups I posted in except for the one this lady was on! Sweet! 

Then, my ex OUT OF NO WHERE wakes me up in the morning to give me a check for $200. He was mean when he gave it to me (“this is so you can feed the fucking kids so don’t spend it on bullshit!” Is what he actually yelled at me. But again, this money was completely unsolicited!). 

Then I get to my ma’s house last night and we are talking about our plan. I told her that I’m looking forward to all the on the beach time and hiking we’re going to be doing. She lets me know that my sister paid for a luau one night ($60 a person and I have 4 people = $240: bringing the manifest up to $455). She said my sister also paid for a tour of Honolulu ($30×4=$120+$455=$575)! I was like what?! I didn’t know all that!

After that, I was making arrangements for my friend to drive us to the airport – my Ma said she would pay for the parking and just leave the car at the airport ($575+$75=$650). THEN my Ma surprised us with pizza dinner last night when I was getting my things together to buy dinner ($650+$15= $665). 

Thank you thank you thank you!! 

I was sweating the fund raiser so much. Tuesday, when I made my intention, I said to myself, “fuck the fund raiser. It doesn’t matter if I raise money, as long as I get to be out in Hawaii with my sister. ” After that, all this abundance just came flooding in! 

I am so grateful for all that I have recieved! I get amazed every time of what can manifest. I am in awe of the Universe. 

I gotta get loading shit up for HAWAII! I will chat with you all in about a week. 

Thank you so much for reading my little blog! If you can contribute, it would be greatly appreciated! If you can’t, please share; maybe someone else can. Either way, I’m just grateful and thankful you stopped by to hang out with me. 

The Magic: Day 10 – Magic Dust

It’s not actual dust. The assignment is to be grateful (and express that gratitude) to the people who provide a service to you today.

Since I stay home 90% of the time, I don’t normally get to interact with adult people in the service industry. LOL Sounds kind of sad, doesn’t it? But I made it a point to save my chores for today just for this exercise!

So, I took in the recycling and chatted up the attendant who was lovely. Then went to turn in my little recycle receipt and was grateful to the attendant there – who was not a Mrs Sunshine if you know what I mean. Then got gas and tried really hard to be grateful for everyone.  It was a little tough because of a girl trying to raise funds for her school. I tried to tell her that I wish I could help but I was trying to raise my own funds; she was just kind of shitty about it. But I was grateful for the cashier at the gas station, then grateful to/for the lady who runs my kids’ after school program. THEN I was grateful and thankful for the cashier at the WIC office.

I really try to be grateful – not just polite – when I interact with people in general before The Magic. I have little tolerance for bad service, but it’s rare that I even get bad service. Today it felt good to continue my little trend. 🙂

Tomorrow’s assignment you have to read about the day before because it starts as soon as you wake up. From the moment you wake up until you are done getting dressed, say thank you for everything you touch and use. You can say it in your head so you don’t look like a crazy person talking to your iron.

I have a big day tomorrow too because my BFF is having her baby shower so I’ll be over there in the AM working on the set up.

Thank you so much for reading my little blog! I am trying to raise funds for my kids’ trip and if you can help, your contribution would be hugely appreciated! If you can’t, would you please share my posts – maybe someone else will be able to help out. Thank you again!

The Magic: Day 9 – The Money Magnet

This is a welcomed exercise however, I’m a little stuck. You’re supposed to take any unpaid bills and write on them, “Thank you for the money.” Then take 10 already paid bills from the past and write across them, “Thank you – Paid.” Make sure that while you’re doing both those things, you feel the complete gratitude of those things being paid, whether they’re paid or not.

For the last 2 years, I have been a stay-at-home mom. All those bills that I had while working have gone bye-bye. What am I supposed to do now?

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