Fat to Phat: The Start

As a 40 yo asshole, I cringe at that title too. ‘Phat’ is not my favorite word, but either is ‘fat’ so I think they compliment themselves perfectly. As you all know, my little world has been shaken up this year. Though I would like to think I have my shit in order considering, my physical condition is a manifestation of my emotional state. What’s a good term for me to use to describe how I feel I look? Dumpy. That’s it.

I am officially the 8th Dwarf. Continue reading


How ACV Made Me Feel Old

Everyone has heard how Apple Cider Vinegar (ACV) is supposed to be brilliant for your health. On my quest for better health, I thought I would try it.

So, without too much research (no common sense), I grabbed a bottle of ACV, measured out 2 tablespoons, and chugged it hardcore; just like that.

I thought I was going to die.

Screaming and running around the house to figure out what the fuck to do next, I was thinking, “how old am I?! I used to shoot 151 and Jack straight! What the fuck is my problem?!”

I likened it to drinking gasoline.

With a little more research (while on webmd.com to triage myself), I found out you’re supposed to dilute it. Who knew? Turns out it can really hurt you if you drink it straight….

First, I wanted to vomit, but I didn’t want to have that burn my esophagus a second time. Now that I’m thinking about it, what’s going to burn when I shit it out?!

Oh, Lord …

Anyway, still determined to ingest this poison, I found a recipe online that I’m going to try. I will let you know how how it goes, once I get the fear of this shit out of my mind.

On a separate point, I can understand how it would aid weight loss. After I drank this ACV toxin, I was nauseated the rest of the day.

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So, I have given into Social (media) Pressure

I did it. I got a little twitter and instagram going. Am I on the band wagon? Maybe. But if you ever want to check-in and see what all is on my brain (ye have been warned), stop by there, give a follow, and hopefully it won’t suck. 🙂

I am getting together some little stories for you all to laugh at me about, so, once I have emotionally dealt with them, I will post them here.

I am overflowing with confidence. Cheers!

The Trip to the ER: a story

When it comes to medical concern, after having 3 kids, I don’t scare easy. I’ve been witness to stitches, seizures, emergency life-saving surgery, eye surgery, allergies from light and grass, and countless infections and viruses that could leave even the most seasoned doctor nauseated.

My youngest had a cough. The word ‘cough’ doesn’t really, truly explain it. She had a cough.

It takes quite a bit to rattle me – medically – so when I got concerned over this cough, I ran with my motherly intuition all the way to the ER.

I understood going there, that my daughter’s cough was not at the high-end of the triage spectrum, so we came prepared to wait, armed with her tablet, coloring books, toys, blanket, and snacks. My 3yo weighed in at an impressive 49 pounds and – hacking away – we waited patiently to be called in.

We saw the nurse for the triage interview and all of a sudden, my 3yo heals up, no coughing, she was dancing and laughing, and talking to everyone. I told the nurse, “I swear she’s sick!” I don’t think he believed me. “Really! I took a video!”

“You can save that for the doctor.” He said dryly. F*** you too.

We finally get called in (I anticipated the wait so I wasn’t tripping about it), and sit in our little room. Since it’s an ER, they aren’t like rooms, they are areas that are separated by curtains, right? So whatever is going on in the curtain-room next to you, you’re going to hear. For instance: The woman who was violently vomiting. Or the man who was having a dementia breakdown. For me, these things are not an issue (again, it takes a lot to startle me medically), however, to my little 3yo who is already not well, she was in auditory hell.

The doctor was quick and to the point. She listened to my kid’s lungs and asked her questions, etc. I said the same thing I told you guys, “Look, I have 3 kids. It takes a lot to rattle me medically so when I heard her coughing like this *cue the video* I thought it absolutely necessary to bring her in.” I thought the cough – coupled with the fever and odd breathing patterns – indicated pneumonia.

Dr Lady watched my little video and smiled. “Thank you for this video, it was a huge help.” I thought she was being condecending at first. She went on to explain that the barking cough (how she described it) is actually a symtom of a viral respitory infection called croup. WTF is that? I have 3 kids and there’s a medical condition that I hadn’t heard of? Seemed unlikely. She said it’s a self-resolving condition, takes about 3 or 4 days to clear up, and since it doesn’t respond to antibiotics (virus), we just needed to focus on keeping the symtoms at bay.

My kid got a dose of steroids to help with the inflamation and then was put on an abuterol breathing treatment to ease the breathing while this cough is hanging around.

The respitory therapist (RT) came into the room a few minutes later to administer the breathing treatment. He brought a student RT with him, who was so nice and patient. My kid, who was feeling better already from the steroids, liked the student and they were having fun while I was speaking with the RT, who was preparing the dose.

Out the corner of my eye, I see my kid hold out her ET finger – you know: “ooouuuccchhh” – and I tried my best to intervene, I swear! But it was too late. Seeing the look on the student’s face explained everything: My kid put her finger in her butt and made the student smell it.

It was like watching an accident happening or slow-mo sports clip, because she’s been doing this shit a lot lately! NNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! By then it was too late. The student horrifyingly looked at me. All I could muster to say was:

“She really spends too much time with her father.”

This Weekend: YES!

Well, I've been at my ma's for a couple weeks now, and pretty shut in. I went on 2 job interviews and run the kids to their swim classes but that's about it. But then, there's this weekend.


This weekend, a local city here is having the annual SwingFest! I am SO EXCITED! It's music and dancing and vendors… I have been looking forward to this for like a month!

When I first got wind that it was coming up, I was stoked! But that was before I moved to my ma's. I thought I would have some kind of help from him; that fell flat.

Another complication is a friend of mine from high school is in town and I really want to visit. No money for that either. ALSO, it means I'm going to have to get dressed at like 8 am …

What about the kids?

When I thought to attend the SwingFest, I assumed I would just have them tag along. Continuously exposing them to actual music can only benefit them. But out of the clear, blue sky….

My sister-in-law called and said she wanted them for the whole weekend! Really? All of them? Are you sure? Alas yes, that brave soul wants to have all 300 of my kids spend the night at her house for the weekend. Sweet!

The Weekend's Plan

I'm hoping she will pick up the kids tonight and not Saturday morning. Either way, I'll get dressed, rush out to meet my friend at noon, then be at the SwingFest at 3 (it starts at 2pm).

I'm going to gather all my 411 and post on here everything 🙂 so if you guys like that kind of shit, you're welcome! And if you don't like Rockabilly… well, you're just wrong. 😘

Thank you all so much for all the support! You all keep me going after my dreams.